You Don’t See Everything

When I say “depression”, what kind of picture do you conjure up in your mind?  Is it a picture of a man pensively gazing out a window in a dark room?  Or a woman crying inconsolably?  You wouldn’t be wrong to think that.  A lot of people living with depression may do those things.  Depression … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.


Respectful Language

I consider myself pretty lucky.  In my years living with depression I don’t think I’ve experienced any overt stigma from anybody (granted, I can be dense at times, so who really knows).  When I have shared with friends what I experience I’m usually supported, and greeted with, “If there’s anything I can do just call … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.


Finding “Normal”

“So how do I do normal? The smile I fake, the permanent wave?” Above are lyrics from a song called “Hear Me Out” by Frou Frou.  That line has stuck with me over the past few weeks.  I have been feeling better and more mentally healthy.  However, managing “normal” sadness has been somewhat of a … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.


Trying Something New

Taking a sip of my black coffee I blankly stare at my laptop.  I take note of the edges of the empty white space on this new Word document, the black line blinking, taunting me.  Drumming my fingers on the keys, I wish I could press harder in some organized fashion to form some kind … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.


Nursing and PTSD

The moment I have been waiting for has finally arrived.  I’m finishing nursing school and graduating with a Bachelor of Science in Psychiatric Nursing.  This past week has been a period of reflection for myself.  I’m proud of this accomplishment, alongside the many other things I’ve been able to do in that time.  There have … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.


Learning To Take Care Of Myself

I’ve been spending some time leading up to this post thinking about a particularly bad day. I was going through a depressive episode and on this day I was a wreck.  At my worst I don’t leave my bed, I am okay with not showering, and I won’t eat.  I don’t want to talk to … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.


Back On Medications

I’m not the kind of person to turn to medications right away.  I don’t take Tylenol for headaches unless I’m about to tear my hair out.  I don’t take cold medications unless I’m bed ridden.  It’s not that I’m an “all natural treatments” kind of person.  I just don’t take lightly to ingesting pills.  There … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.


Please Stop Telling Me To Do Yoga

“Try doing yoga!” “Think positive thoughts!” “Go out and get some fresh air!” Above is advice that has been given to me by many people after disclosing that I live with depression.  And it is infuriating.  If escaping depression were that simple, I would not have acquired it in the first place. I become so … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.


When Is The Right Time?

A while ago, Healthy Minds Canada posed a question on their social media: When’s the right time to tell someone you’re dating about your mental illness?  If you’re looking for a definite answer, my apologies.  I don’t have one.  However, I’m willing to share my thoughts and a couple anecdotes that hopefully may help you … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.


Appreciating the Good Days

Living with depression, for me, can feel very monotonous and pointless.  Every day feels the same and I’m really not sure what the point of it all is.  Things I used to love to do in my spare time feel gray and forcing myself to still do them is torturous. Running was something that gave … Continued

About Cassie S

25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.