Dear Father: A Letter About Unrecognized Emotional Abuse

Dear Father, How insincere of me to put it into a letter to be posted online, but I mean every word I write. I’m tired of the text message apologies that only emotionally manipulate me to believe for a second that my feelings are invalid. They aren’t. I have been willing to move forward and … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


The Validation of Feeling Sad

  “Give me the words of a broken poem, and the heart of an empty soul.” Words that fell off of the end of my pen last week. They seemed relevant to me, because earlier that day as I was talking to my counselor I began to tell her how I was afraid of getting … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


Tired of Waiting

It’s currently 4am as I’m writing this; I’m not able to sleep very well these days. I find myself waking up throughout the night, and not being able to fall back asleep. Just another frustration with mental illness, and the medications that come along with it. It seems I’m always one extreme or the other, … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


How Horses Help Me Heal

  This one is for all of my equestrian friends, and the animal who changed my life forever. Ever since I was a little girl I’ve been captivated by horses. I began riding at the young age of three, and have been ever since. It has turned out to be one of the greatest parts … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


How Medications Diagnosed Me

Medication is a controversial topic when it comes to mental illness, because there’s this sort of barrier around the idea of having to medicate yourself to function normally. At least that is how I view it. Don’t get me wrong, I use medications – in fact, I need my medications. But I’ve always felt incredibly … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


Cutting Ties With Toxic People

Never give anyone the power to make you feel small. I know that it’s easier said than done, because I myself have done it so many times before. I’ve come across many people who’ve made me feel very small, even ones who I thought the world of. Sometimes we want to give people the benefit … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


When All You Wanted Was To Be Wanted

My thoughts are like this endless game of dominoes. One thing falls and crashes into the next in this ongoing chain that’s connected, but not entirely. I often find myself trying to dig deeper into why I feel certain things. As I lay here in bed I feel this overwhelming disconnectedness from the world. Alone, … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


Searching For The Words

Sometimes when I write, it is as easy as breathing. Other times, it’s like gasping for air. Right now is very much one of those out of air moments. The last thing I ever want to do is talk in circles. I always want my blogs to be honest, and about different aspects of mental … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


A Future That Belongs To Me

I’ve talked about being in love while living with mental illness before, and I gave you my opinion on the whole “you can’t love someone else until you love yourself” thing  (in summary, I think it’s BS, for a lack of a better word). This time around I’d like to talk more in depth about … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


I’m Not Crazy, I’m Just a Little Unwell

The silent killer, the part of our own battles with mental illness that we don’t really talk about openly: suicidal thoughts. There is nothing more terrifying than thinking that the only way to make it all stop is by ending it all. Opening up about having mental illness is hard enough but for some reason … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


Questions That I Don’t Know I’ll Ever Have Answers For

I recently shared a post that was very positive, and I was feeling motivated for 2016. Before that I had written a post about how we sometimes feel as though we can only share our stories in past tense even though our demons still might be lingering in the shadows. Well, as I’ve mentioned I … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


New Year, Same Me

Well, 2016, here we are. Happy new year to everyone, I hope that everyone had a great night, surrounded by loved ones, maybe even getting a NYE kiss in there. I also hope the hangovers aren’t too bad. Anyway, this week’s blog is going to cover a couple of things. One being a recount of … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


Thinking For Yourself

I have always been the sort of person who kind of hangs back and allows others to walk all over them. I keep quiet and don’t impose my opinions or beliefs on others, even friends and family. I figure that I hate when people say these sort of things to me, so why would I … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


Getting Bad Again

As I’ve been toying with different ideas to write about for this week’s post, I finally decided that today I’m going to get real. I realize I’ve shared my story and different anecdotes, but even though this is a blog, I feel like I haven’t been very blog-like. I have only vaguely shared bits of … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


The Person I Really Needed to Forgive Was Myself

“When you forgive, you in no way change the past — but you sure do change the future.” – Bernard Meltzer This is a quote I’ve recently stumbled upon. It got me thinking about how I’ve been holding onto something negative that has really affected me day-to-day. For the longest time I have been weighed … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


The Last Hug That Lingered in the Doors of Walmart

“Grief is like the ocean – it’s deep, dark, and bigger than all of us” (One Tree Hill). A statement that I have found to be very true in the past 5 months. I want to share a topic that is very real. I know you probably think suicide is real already, but I thought … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


You CAN Love Someone Even If You Don’t Love Yourself (Yet)

Self-image plays a very significant role in mental health. Self-esteem is a tough thing for most people in general, and when you have the heavy weight of mental illness hanging over you it’s easier to see all of your “flaws” and to feel self-hatred more frequently. “You can’t love anyone until you love yourself” – … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


I’m Not What I Could Be. But I’m Not Who I Was.

Recovery is a very common subject in the conversation about mental health. The thing is though, everyone’s journey to recovery is different. That makes each story unique, and hopefully inspiring to others. Today in particular I have been really questioning what recovery is, and if it even exists. I’m not quite sure if you ever … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


It All Starts With a Choice

Everything begins somewhere. So, I am going to share my story of where my journey with mental illness began. This post is a hard one for me, as I have difficult time opening up about this. I’ve said in a previous post that I’ve dealt with anxiety for a long time but it was around … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.


School is Important, but so is Self Care

The first week of school is always the best. You get to see your friends, and classes are always very laid back to start with. As the year progresses, so does the stress. I have always struggled through school. I am not an academic student or into extracurriculars whatsoever. I also had a difficult time … Continued

About Emma Holden

18, tea enthusiast, animal lover, word writer, and wants to change the stigma on mental health one blog post at a time.