Full Circle

So it seems I’ve come full circle. When it came time to write my first blog post, I was at a loss for days before I found the words. Now, when it’s time to write the last one, I find myself staring again at a blank page. The past six months were all about new experiences, … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


Finding The Happy

People keep asking me what I mean when I refer to my “happy”. There’s no big secret. It’s not a code word. My happy is exactly what it sounds like – the moments that give me the warm and fuzzies and make me feel like all is right with the world. Examples? Glad you asked… … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


The Bad is Behind Me

So my life is going really well right now. I have a new job that I love, a little house that is my sanctuary, and enough money to pay the bills. I have friends and family who love me, and furbabies that help keep me sane. I had an appointment with my psych, who gave … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


It’s Medicine, Not Magic

I’ve never hidden the fact that I take meds. I always tell people that I wouldn’t be embarrassed to be taking insulin if I was diabetic, and I refuse to be embarrassed to take the medication I need to correct a chemical imbalance in my brain. Because I’m so open about taking them, I end up … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


Getting Out of My Own Way

I’ve been at my new job for almost a month now, and it’s wonderful. I’m blissfully tired at the end of every day, so I sleep like a baby. There is an incredible amount to learn, and I feel like I’m using my brain more than I have in years. I feel like I’m getting … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


Yes, I Can Handle Sad

In my last post I wrote about my search for a new job. Well I’m happy to report that I’ve found one – at a funeral home! No, it’s not just in the office…I’m dealing with families at one of the hardest and saddest points in their lives, working funerals and burials and doing things … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


Take That First Step

I sometimes feel like there are things that my illness has “robbed” me of. It’s not easy to live a full life when you have months that leave you unable to get out of bed, let alone leave the house, meet people, and do the things you want to do. When I did manage to … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


I Do It For Her

Over the course of the last few weeks I’ve spent a lot of time looking at old photos of family. The ones that hit me the hardest were not the ones of the grandfather I just lost, but those of the grandmother who has been gone for almost 20 years. The pictures showed her as … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


Put One Foot in Front of The Other

So it’s been a rough couple of weeks. Not only have I had to face the fact that we have decided to close our family run store after almost 11 years (it feels a little like losing my safety net), but I am now also having to deal with the grief that comes with losing … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


Calm Down, It’s Only a Panic Attack

I barely make it through the doors of the emergency room before I land on my hands and knees on the floor. My mother and the nurse help me up and into the triage room. The nurse is kind and concerned…until she realizes there’s nothing physically wrong with me. You see, I’m in the midst … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


The Being Down is Easy, The Getting Back Up is Hard

A few months ago I caught myself feeling nostalgic…about being depressed. You see, it was the pre-Christmas season, and I was feeling a little stressed. I happened to be watching a show in which the main character had fallen into a deep depression following some traumatic incident or other. There she was, curled up under … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.


2015 – The Year of No Fear

I’ll start by admitting this – I’m. Absolutely. Terrified. Anyone who knows me would think this is ridiculous, because I’ve always been really open about my struggles with depression and anxiety. I don’t hide the fact that I take meds or see a psychiatrist, and have even been known to call it “owning my crazy”. … Continued

About Jessica Wilson

My name is Jessica Wilson, I’m 35 years old and single. The single is (mostly) by choice, the 35 is not. I am mom to 5 furbabies, have become an avid runner, and own and operate a small business. I’ve been dealing with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety in my early 20’s, and continue to struggle with it or manage quite well, depending on the day. It very obviously runs in my family – my grandmother was bipolar, and mental illness can be traced back at least 3 generations on my maternal side, in various forms.