Depersonalization

Every since I was a child, I asked a million questions in search for immediate answers. I liked to learn and I needed an answer for everything. I was inquisitive and annoying (according to my parents), so much so, that on one of my birthdays my aunt bought me a book called “A Million and … Continued


Dear Psychiatry Resident: A thank you letter

  Dear Psychiatry Resident, You found yourself sitting across from me because I had a scary episode of self-harm one night. You may not remember me but I remember you. I went alone to the mental health ER where you were working. I hoped that a mental health specific ER would understand me better than … Continued


What am I?

  When I was 16 I sat in a grey, cold hospital office where I was told in a matter of fact way, I had dysthymia and mild social anxiety. Fast forward a few years later, I’m 20 sitting in my university’s basement being told softly I have Major Depressive Disorder.   What are these … Continued


Men’s Mental Health Awareness Day

My initial plan was to complete my trilogy on mental health supports this week, but I’ve spent the last two weeks in support of a Canadian initiative that I’d like to bring to your attention: Men’s Mental Health Awareness Day. Consequently, the final part of that trilogy will follow shortly. Last year, I was tagged … Continued


Living Tired

Somehow, between pursuing a career and keeping up with our social commitments, being tired has become more than a feeling, but a state of being that our society has submitted to. If you ask anyone how they’re doing, odds are you will hear some variation of “tired”, and how else will you commiserate with them without discussing … Continued


Autism doesn’t end at 5!

April is autism awareness month, an appropriate time to think about the autism journey experienced by many families. Recently the Ontario government announced improvements in funding for kids with autism. The idea sounded like a good one — increase funding to support greater access to Intensive Behavioural Intervention (IBI). Certainly, the evidence supports the notion … Continued


Why Stigma is a F@#r-Letter Word

Stigma is a f@#r-letter word.  (I know there are actually 6, but bear with me. As a metaphor connecting stigma to the various four-letter swear words commonly used in English, it works.) I am speaking of the stigma that still surrounds mental illness, and the lack of empathy and understanding that follows. And that’s at … Continued


To Love and Be Loved

  Love will always have its share of ups and downs. Love when you or your partner, family member or friend is struggling with a mental illness is no different, but it may involve different demands. I have suffered from various mental health issues for the majority of my adult life, and so has my … Continued


Trauma, The Hidden Epidemic?

The wound is the place where the light enters you.  – Rumi   How profound. Of course, I did not always see it that way. My early years did not seem to be filled with much light or hope at all. I was abused, abandoned and neglected as a child by people who were supposed … Continued


Recovering my mental health after abuse

My ex-boyfriend of 5 years changed the way I do certain things. I used to say “supposebly” and now I say “supposedly”. I button up the very top button on collared shirts when I hang them to maintain the shape of the collar. I cut my food with my fork behind my knife instead of … Continued


You Asked: Why Do People Die By Suicide?

I’ll never forget the day I found out that Robin Williams had died by suicide. The thing is he wasn’t a childhood icon to me like he was for other people my age. I barely remember Mrs. Doubtfire; I’ve never actually watched Aladdin. And yet, I read the news that day and was hit with a … Continued


On Talk Supports

I liken my recovery supports to the three legs of a stool. Each plays its role in providing a stable base from which my recovery can grow. Remove one leg, though, and the stable base for recovery is lost and recovery falters. In my previous post, I spoke on one of these legs, my use … Continued


How Do You Describe Bipolar States?

I watched the documentary Bright Lights with my friend this weekend. Bright Lights is the HBO documentary about Carrie Fisher and her mother, Debbie Reynolds. It is a very honest documentary. There are parts that will make you smile and laugh, tear up and possibly cry, and nod in agreement. One fan of Carrie Fisher’s said, She epitomizes … Continued


When Helpers Need Help

It makes a lot of sense to me that people who have lived experience with mental health issues, either personally or by way of their loved ones, are drawn to helping professions: teachers, social workers, public service workers, therapists, nurses, counselors, probation officers – the list goes on. Our experience has shaped our lives and … Continued


Interests – Or Lack Thereof

So here I am with my last blog post for Healthy Minds Canada. My four months of blogging for them went by way too quickly, but alas, it is time for new people to step in and take over. I had to sit and think for a while about a topic to write about for … Continued


We cannot pick and choose: BPD moms deserve support

I’m a busy mom to an almost 6-month-old boy. I admit I have not been keeping up with my own personal mental health blog. In my last post, I reached out to the borderline personality disorder (BPD) Mom community and shared my intentions of creating a program for moms with BPD to be confident and … Continued


Time Changes Everything

Yesterday was a good day – good enough that I decided to crack open my barely used journal and write about it. It’s funny because a week ago, I was experiencing the absolute worst day of my life. A bad day turned into a huge fight with my parents which led to another mental breakdown. … Continued


On Psychotropics

I take three psychotropic medications. This is my choice, taken in full knowledge of the potential side effects (I read the information provided by my pharmacy and the information available on drugs.com). Your opinion may differ, and that’s okay. Your experience may differ, and that’s okay too. What I do know is that they work … Continued


How to Practice Compassion

I’ve written before about how powerful and overwhelming thoughts can be. When you are feeling anxious or feeling depressed, or a combination of both, you have thoughts that are hard to process and thoughts that lead to further feelings of distress. These thoughts are real to you and are important as part of your mental health … Continued


The Perks of Depression

Generally speaking, mental illness is not something people are thrilled to identify with or experience. I can’t say I’m often jazzed about the chronic fatigue, self-doubt, and the emotional imbalance that accompany my illness. Things I could live without, am I right? However, a life without depression would not be life as I know it. … Continued