BPD and Motherhood — If I can do it so can you!

Nothing has been more gratifying and fulfilling as being a mother. I love my kids, I am proud and frankly honored I’ve been blessed with the chance to raise them. All 3 of my kids are amazing ( says every mother ever ) they are smart and talented and every day make me proud (again … Continued


25 years of Mefloquine Madness

As a brief introduction, I am very happy to have been invited by Healthy Minds Canada to share the story about my first ever encounter with a prescription drug at age 28.  This medication was an anti-malarial drug called mefloquine, also known by its brand name Lariam (Hoffman-La Roche).  In the following 19 years after … Continued


Stress: The Secret Path to Illness

Recently, I found myself struggling to stay awake, complete the tasks I needed to get done, falling asleep during a shower and barely eating anything in a day. What I have been experiencing lately reminds me of having the flu, a cold or just some sort of physical discomfort. But with no direct cause present, … Continued


Self – Harm

**There is a discussion of self-harm, and self-mutilation in this post.  I am not a professional in any sense of the word, I am just a girl and this is just my own experience.**   Me again! How have you been? I am very excited to be back writing for you and I thought to … Continued


Colouring

Over the past three years, I’ve amassed an array of tools to help me maintain my mental health. I have books, audiobooks, meditations, photographs, crisis plans, wellness toolkits and more. My tools are both passive – watching tv or listening to music, and active – meditating and painting. Of late, though, the activity I’ve most … Continued


Worried Sick – My Love Affair with Self-Diagnosis

Decades before I was diagnosed with anxiety, I was always being told to “stop worrying”.  I first remember feeling properly anxious when I self-diagnosed a headache as a brain tumour.  I was 11-years old and my mom correctly guessed that I probably just needed glasses. This incident triggered the start of my 30-year love affair … Continued


Turning Off, Turning Out

I have a problematic relationship with my phone. Not only are the monthly data overage charges a cause for stress (sorry Mom), but my reliance on the device for personal comfort is downright shameful. My 2011 MacBook Pro has essentially become an oversized paperweight while I use my smartphone for all of my activities within … Continued


7 Reasons why a loved one may be avoiding treatment

Today’s Westernized cultures, societies, and standards of living push a notion of perfection – especially through our intense interactions with the media. People are now aiming to achieve a higher status to sustain influence and be thought of positively by people; often delaying or rejecting particular actions that imply weakness or negative impressions of themselves. It … Continued


The Apps I Use

My Crisis Plan defines specific steps I follow to deal with crisis. They range from the very basic, trying to calm myself, to the very difficult, reaching out for help. But the point is they establish a step by step response to crisis that, I’ve learned over time, works for me. My Plan directs me … Continued


Hello, Nourished Life

I’m in the process of saying goodbye to somebody. Unlike most goodbyes, that we want to avoid because they make us sad, this is a goodbye I happily walk toward. I’m saying goodbye to this girl: She looks happy right? She seems nice, confident, smiling. This is where she fools you. Although I was 20-years … Continued


Heartbeats

I don’t remember a time where I felt safe, I was not safe from the world, my home, my life, and I was definitely never safe from myself.  For most of my adolescent life, I had this understanding with myself that adulthood would not be a part of my story, I could never survive past … Continued


Love Need Not End

The last month or so has been a period of transition and unsteadiness, as I have moved to a new city to take on a new employment contract. I have laid my weary bones to rest on couches and air mattresses of both friends and friendly strangers with whom I have corresponded on the Internet. … Continued


How I Coped with Delay

A necessary part of your mental health recovery will be your ability to cope with, to manage, delay. That’s true here in Ontario and likely throughout the rest of Canada. Delay is endemic throughout the health system. But it’s most acutely felt, I believe, in the mental health system, where resources are scarce and the … Continued


Body, Mind, and Soul

I haven’t talked about this with really anybody ever extensively, which is why I think I need to now. I am not an expert, or a doctor, I am just a girl, and this is just my experience.   As I’m sure I’ve made evident by now in my other various posts, you probably know … Continued


ACoA Report Card: Part 1

Once we become aware of the effects that trauma has had our lives, at what point do we progress from being victims of our circumstances to being accountable for our choices? This is a question I ask myself a lot, particularly identifying as an ACoA (adult child of alcoholic). This two part article series will … Continued


My mental health is more than what is in my head

  Since I began my mental health activism in 2008, the dialogue has been predominantly around mental health/illness as being in your brain. I do not dispute the brain’s role in mental wellness. The critical skeptic in me has wondered if the large focus on the brain is a way to avoid the social determinants … Continued


Seeking Treatment – It’s Not Always Easy

I believe that as human beings we are innately intuitive, and if we allow ourselves to be still and quiet we can figure out right from wrong, good from evil, truth from lies, the right path for us. I knew something more was going on in me when I was 15 on a family vacation … Continued


Reflections Upon #MensMHDay 2017

While #MensMHDay 2017 has come and gone, I’d like to take this moment to reflect on what we accomplished in 2017 and plant the seeds for next year’s campaign. By way of background, Men’s Mental Health Awareness Day was founded by Jean-Francois Claude in 2014. Jean-Francois has lived experience with depression. Like many men, he … Continued



Buzzword: Self-Care

I’ve been talking about buzzwords in these blogs a little bit, like mental health and suicide, but a buzzword I’ve been thinking about a lot lately is self-care. Self-care is everywhere these days, isn’t it? Everywhere you look there is a post on self-care – how to self-care, self-care routines, what is self-care, why is … Continued