There are some days when I really have to talk myself into going through the motions of the day. Times when I need to remind myself that there’s a lot of good that comes from putting in the effort even when my emotions are not in it. Knowing that they can come to life at any time gives me the prospect of hope when I really don’t have any.
I’m a fan of cognitive behavioural therapy. However, I believe that a lot of the time it’s our feelings that influence our thoughts, before thoughts influence our feelings. Being cognitive of this can be helpful when I’m feeling low due to other factors aside from any particular situation or circumstance. For instance, last night I had a dream that consisted of things and people from my past that can be chalked up to my post-traumatic stress disorder along with the responsibility I feel for situations that could have gone better—but didn’t, hence where I’m at today and how I felt this morning.
Coming into consciousness this morning after experiencing the loss of a loved one (who’s still alive somewhere) and confronting the reality of life’s loneliness and lack of loving relationships, I could acknowledge that I was off to a bad start. Yet, I was able to dig deep out of conditioning–not desire–and remind myself that everyone makes mistakes and not all things are meant to be. The reality of now is not permanent. Change is coming whether I like it or not, and I should proceed through the day while being aware that it can and will get better.
None of us can control or predict all of the variables, so doing my part by being optimistic and enthusiastic with my actions while giving chance a chance is how I attempt to make the best of lackluster feelings and thoughts. Today I coached myself into getting into the game. I wished myself luck and patted myself on the back for all the effort it took to be here.
I hope everyone develops this conditioning to do the same for themselves, despite some of the situations and circumstances you may feel responsible for.
About Mickey Von Bron
Mickey Von Bron is a certified personal trainer who specializes in nutrition, supplements and natural methods of improving health and wellness. Having experienced and overcome many obstacles associated with mental health and addiction, he is committed to inspiring people through his own example. His first book, Drug Free June: A Hypomanic Episode, is soon to be published. You can read some of Mickey's other writing about mental health at AliveAndAwake.ca and Light Way of Thinking.