She thought it was kinda kinky when I told her to take off her makeup and keep her clothes on.
Twenty minutes later she came out of my bathroom. We lay in bed cuddling. I ran my fingers through her hair, behind her ear and along her jawline while kissing her softly on the cheek. She seemed flustered. She could feel my adoration along with my arms and legs that held her nestled by my side. She felt naked and insecure, laughing when a touch of mascara graced the pillow. I told her not to worry about it.
A truly lovely and remarkable young woman whose beauty was reminiscent of supermodels I’d seen on magazine covers. If not for being cuter, prettier and sexier I probably would have names of who she resembled.
It was several months that we’d been dating on and off when I told her that she was the most beautiful girl I’d ever been with – only for her to roll her eyes at me. Unable to fathom the thought. Knowing full well I was crazy. She often told me I was stupid when I told her truths that made her blush.
Our connection had developed from both being tall, slender and physically attracted to each other. Both of us anomalies to each other in different ways. It was months after we had delved deep into the psyche of her eating disorder, body dysmorphic disorder, AD/HD, PTSD, depression and a desire to get plastic surgery on her nose, although it was just as beautiful as everything else about her.
She felt ugly. Convinced that it was her body, face, nose, weight, hips, ass and feet…when it was none of the above. Her brain had a way of telling her that how she felt was because of them. Or maybe it was her parents, her friends, her exes or the media.
But I’ve seen this happen way too often, with this being the extreme in extreme cases.
There are too many beautiful women who don’t feel beautiful, to the point where they often feel like there’s something wrong with the men who are attracted to them without the lights off, without their makeup, without their push-up bras, without breast implants, without them losing weight, without them getting plastic surgery or without anything else…
Lies, lies & more lies…
About Mickey Von Bron
Mickey Von Bron is a certified personal trainer who specializes in nutrition, supplements and natural methods of improving health and wellness. Having experienced and overcome many obstacles associated with mental health and addiction, he is committed to inspiring people through his own example. His first book, Drug Free June: A Hypomanic Episode, is soon to be published. You can read some of Mickey's other writing about mental health at AliveAndAwake.ca and Light Way of Thinking.