Taking a sip of my black coffee I blankly stare at my laptop. I take note of the edges of the empty white space on this new Word document, the black line blinking, taunting me. Drumming my fingers on the keys, I wish I could press harder in some organized fashion to form some kind of sentence. “Well, shit,” I mutter beneath my breath. I close my eyes, hoping to not see the ominous writer’s block staring me in the face. As I open them I am disappointed. The blank page has not left, and I am still here.
This was me a couple of nights ago. I decided that I wanted to do something new and felt that dabbling in creative writing would be pretty neat. I’ve spent the past numerous years getting pretty good at writing essays for school, and I kind of liked it. I also remember doing creative writing projects in Jr. High and enjoying them as well. So – why not? No harm in trying something new. Who knows, maybe I’ll write a book and make millions. A girl can dream, can’t she?
I did what I always do when I want to try something new. I need to read about it or find “how-to” guides. So, I took to pinterest and found a 30 day challenge to help prompt me and get started. I read articles on how to write and what to do. The most consistent advice I found was that even if you feel it’s garbage, write at least 300 words a day. That seemed like a reasonable and attainable goal and I thought I could do it.
What I forgot was how hard it is to start something new. I liked writing papers because there was some sort of direction provided for topic choice. Papers also cater to my argumentative side, using my words to prove a point to my reader/prof. However, creative writing is so broad. It can be anything I want, which is awesome yet problematic for me. It was really hard to try something new. I’m a few days into my challenge now and it still hasn’t gotten much easier. I have committed myself to at the very least completing 30 days. It is a challenge after all, and I try not to be a quitter.
The point I’m trying to make is that any lifestyle change or choice you decide to make for yourself will probably be hard in the beginning, trying to be more active and eating better being among the most common. But stick with it! Anything new is hard. Habits take time, patience, and dedication to form. If you’re like me trying to do something new, maybe give it a couple of weeks or 30 days before you call it quits.
The worst thing that could happen is that I find out I don’t really like creative writing, but the best thing that could happen is that I keep learning how to stay dedicated to tackling a goal.
About Cassie S
25 year old psychiatric nursing student. I live with depression off and on and have since I was 12. Learning to ride the waves as they come. I'm an introvert who enjoys reading, art, and spending time with friends and family. I also really enjoy being active: running, biking, hot yoga, dodge ball and slo-pitch are a few favourites.